The strength of your faith is not the big deal you might think it is. Jesus made it clear that even the most miniscule amount of faith (think mustard seed) is enough to move mountains.
The issue is not the quantity or quality of your faith.
The issue is the object of your faith.
For instance, if you are at sea in a typhoon, the issue is not the quality/quantity of your faith in your boat, but the object of your faith. If you’ve placed your faith in a rubber dingy, premium-deluxe faith isn’t going to make the slightest difference. You’re history. But if you’ve placed your faith in a large, seasoned vessel that has weathered many a storm, the most anemic faith is good enough.
When you stepped onto that ship, you placed your faith in it. It doesn’t matter if you fretted for days before boarding and have been worried sick since the day you left port. If you’ve placed your faith in a trustworthy object, you will be safe. Because your safety depends on the ship, not on your faith.
And it makes no difference if you had a faith so weak that you hardly got on the boat. The fact is, you had enough faith to get on and that’s the issue. The object of your faith is either trustworthy and safe or it is not.
When you’re struggling with life or your relationship with God, remember that your safety and stability does not depend on your faith. It depends on the object of your faith. If you’re on board with God, you are as safe as God is trustworthy. That means you don’t have to spend your days looking inside, conducting cross-examination on yourself measuring and testing your faith from every angle. Of course you can choose to do so, but it doesn’t make you any more or less safe. Instead, you can fasten yourself to the mast and shout into the storm “How great! How great is our God!”
He is great!
Grace to you,